And here we are again…
This morning I had my first follicle scan since finishing the 150mg of Clomid on Tuesday. No good ones to speak of. Still just a bunch of very small ones.
Left: 4.54 and 6.30
I was feeling pretty low when we left the appointment. The nurse did the scan this time and she didn’t seem very optimistic. She said to come back Monday for another scan and then moved on to briefly discuss injectables. She said that would be our next step.
Joe and I were (obviously) really hoping not to get to this point already. It’s just really bad timing with the holidays coming up. We have to buy gifts for a lot of people and we really don’t have an extra $3K+ laying around. We talked about taking the month of December off from trying. I hate this idea. Even if we aren’t “trying” I know I won’t be able to relax and not think about it. It was also upsetting for me because I never pictured money being an obstacle for us. I just figured we would do whatever we had to do to make it work. Now, I’m realizing that maybe that isn’t possible just yet, no matter what we do. And this might sound completely ridiculous but I was really hoping to go into the holidays pregnant. Not that we would tell anyone yet, but I think it would just make me feel better. I’m really not looking forward to Christmas specifically. We’re spending it with Joe’s family this year which means our pregnant sister-in-law and Joe’s baby cousins running around, as well as a billion other people that I’m not sure if my mother-in-law spilled the beans to them or not about our infertility issues. Sound fun?
I got an email from the nurse this afternoon saying that my labs “looked good!” and that we’re keeping the monitoring appointment for Monday. That was definitely nice to hear.
My progesterone was 0.918. It has ALWAYS been <.002.
My estrogen was 70.25.
I’m sorry my posts have been so blah and whiney lately! I promise I’ll try to do better!